One minute I am growing up on a council estate, leaving school, feeling alienated and without much of a future. Then down the line I am married, living in a large house and working as a Senior Lecturer in a University. Then for a time my life crumbled. But how did I arrive at the places I did? Was it all just a matter of chance, or was there more to it? This is a candid account of my life showing epic struggles through childhood, school, work and marriage: and eventually finding the authentic me in the process.